'Considered a traitor': Life of an anti-war Ukrainian in Russia

In war-torn Ukraine, her family considers her a traitor. In tightly controlled Russia, her life is defined by solitude.

A Ukrainian living in Russia for the past 20 years, Maria -- whose name AFP has changed for her safety -- has for four years watched with horror as her adopted homeland waged war against her native country.

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